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Saturday, July 31, 2010
3:43 PM Dear bloggie~ I'm bak here writing on u again~ :x lawls... lames~ aiya... just feel like i needed to scribble some things... =/ still havent been feeling well these days... MIA-ing online except for bloggie... Well, same old thing - "Everything just cramps up to him..." Sigh... I'm feeling so lonely even though i had frends and family... maybe i'm just being too demanding =( I missed him everyday like the days we're tgt... just tht this time, its even worst.... I told him to leave me alone since he's chasing bak his x, && he really did... All I wish for is the opposite thing - like he'll prefer to stay wif me or sth.... Yea, its kinda of an expectation... Well, i guess, he's hurt me too much tht he thinks tht he shouldnt be near me now =/ Thts... quite wrong... When i was beside him while he was telling me to giv up on him, i want to cry, but cant or rather, i dont want to... coz i had enuff of crying in front of him which i really shouldnt have done tht last time... I feel tht there are a lot of things i shouldnt have done in the past to make him feel tht guilty... I wish to be strong, strong enuff tht i'll stay by his side and be his sun ... but it seems like i'm the one who needs a sun... Now tht we havent been contacting each other for 4 days... i wonder if he'll miss me... I dont think so... I think he's probably concentrating on chasing bak his x and.. yea.. tht should be the way it is... Somtimes, how i wish he'll just pop out of nowhere.. just to see his face...or see how he's doing, but thr is no fate btwn us at all... whr we ourselves have to create the fate to see each other... Why do i love him so much... when he alrdy hurt me soo much ppl ask? Well, its weird but i just love him for how he is... despite hurting me so much, i still love him =/ I also dont understand myself... I still wan to know more abt him though... Anyway, he should be doing fine... yea... he should be... Coz the one he needed is not me, but her... wad abt me then....? oh... this is sooo shyttiieee.... K~ enuff of the these stuffs again... Anyway, ytd had a small prize presentation stuff, i didnt expect myself to be on the list o-o Its nth sort of a big deal but, I didnt think i did tht well for tht module... but anyway, congrats to myself? LOL -_- (self-congratulation... lames...) Also grats Cheryl, Eunice, Bee Yee && Ziana on the list too~ Esp, Ziana && Bee Yee~ onto the director's list! haha! xD There's so many things on nxt week... omg... Mon - Jap Oral/Speaking assessment & quiz (as usual) Tue - CAD test, Hardscape detailings, Softscape Part1 & 2 submissions Wed - LCPN test, (PBPN class quiz?) Thur - LCPN presentation Fri - PBPN report submission, PBPN practical test omg omg~~~ && ytd went for my cca too =D Well, i tot it could get things off my mind... so... i stayed till 8:30pm or so lol >-< tht's the first time i ever stayed for tht long alone... Heard tht they're gonna select a few into the manga team or sth... i wonder if i could get in hee :x though my basic stuffs isnt tht gd, but we shall see x3 I feel like drawing sth rite now... but i'm currently feeling slpy :x haiz~ so~~ cannot draw liao~~ ltr needa do my PBPN labbie book hw and the report too... yea.. KILL KILL KILL >-< okies じゃ！ ピエス： アイロフイウ |
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Monday, July 26, 2010
11:05 PM はいはい！みなーさん！さしぶりです！ alright alright :x Long time "no see", or rather no bloggie ~-~ yea, its been dead.... (maybe i should revive it some time or sth -.- ) Well, schooling has been alright and yea, everything is fine except for my heart maybe? haha (sounds as if i got some heart disease or sth... but NO NO~~) Well... these days... or rather the few weeks, i've havent been having any life in it... =( Lotsa things and happen and yea, boii boii has ta leave me... and prob for gd T_T 悲しいです、とても... I do appreciate that my frends and family are comforting and supporting me... thanks... But still... sigh... I feel like such a failure in this kind of thing... (&& i'm kinda hating myself for it...) Despite tht, its weird tht i'm having all my drawing mood bak these few days o-o ... i'll say though, its the first time i'm not drawing anything brightly i feel... saddies =( But still, i still wanna support him! .. contradicting to wad i really wan huh... well, i'm always like this, always get drag by ppl and let them do wad they wan... then in the end, i hurt myself.... cant be helped... heh Alright, enuff wif the depressing part =/ Don wanna mention it further anymore to make my tears flow out now... HAHA -.- Hmmm... ohh yaa! recently, i've been getting FLUs o-o Why siaaa!!?? it likes me so much is it?! rawrr!! shooo shooo u damn flu! i don like u! i rather have.... *ahem* -.-' gahhhh NOO! nooo nooooo =( Alright, STOPPPIES! tht's all for today then! (doubt anyone will be reading this though hahas...) それじゃ！ なぜこんなにさびしですか。 私はほんとにあなたこと大好き、 ほんとに。 会いたいです、心も痛いです。 でも、私はここに待っている。 どんなにつらいことがある、私はここに待ったいる。 お願い、も一度私はために笑ってください。 －愛と、私 |
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Wednesday, July 14, 2010
11:50 PM I am feeling DAMNNNN STRESSS and TENSE-UP NOW T-T *sob sob* I dunno why... but suddenly everything just irritates me... *bangs head bangs head* WHHHYYYYYYYY!!!!???????? HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ T_T AHHHHHHH!!! ほっといてよ！！！ T_T I. AM. SOOOOOO. NOT. ALRIGHT. |
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