Dear bloggie~ I'm bak here writing on u again~ :x
lawls... lames~
aiya... just feel like i needed to scribble some things... =/
still havent been feeling well these days...
MIA-ing online except for bloggie...
Well, same old thing - "Everything just cramps up to him..."
Sigh... I'm feeling so lonely even though i had frends and family...
maybe i'm just being too demanding =(
I missed him everyday like the days we're tgt... just tht this time, its even worst....
I told him to leave me alone since he's chasing bak his x, && he really did...
All I wish for is the opposite thing - like he'll prefer to stay wif me or sth....
Yea, its kinda of an expectation...
Well, i guess, he's hurt me too much tht he thinks tht he shouldnt be near me now =/
Thts... quite wrong...
When i was beside him while he was telling me to giv up on him, i want to cry, but cant or rather, i dont want to...
coz i had enuff of crying in front of him which i really shouldnt have done tht last time...
I feel tht there are a lot of things i shouldnt have done in the past to make him feel tht guilty...
I wish to be strong, strong enuff tht i'll stay by his side and be his sun ... but it seems like i'm the one who needs a sun...
Now tht we havent been contacting each other for 4 days... i wonder if he'll miss me...
I dont think so...
I think he's probably concentrating on chasing bak his x and.. yea.. tht should be the way it is...
Somtimes, how i wish he'll just pop out of nowhere.. just to see his face...or see how he's doing, but thr is no fate btwn us at all... whr we ourselves have to create the fate to see each other...
Why do i love him so much... when he alrdy hurt me soo much ppl ask?
Well, its weird but i just love him for how he is... despite hurting me so much, i still love him =/
I also dont understand myself... I still wan to know more abt him though...
Anyway, he should be doing fine... yea... he should be...
Coz the one he needed is not me, but her...
wad abt me then....?
oh... this is sooo shyttiieee....
K~ enuff of the these stuffs again...
Anyway, ytd had a small prize presentation stuff, i didnt expect myself to be on the list o-o
Its nth sort of a big deal but, I didnt think i did tht well for tht module...
but anyway, congrats to myself? LOL -_-
(self-congratulation... lames...)
Also grats Cheryl, Eunice, Bee Yee && Ziana on the list too~
Esp, Ziana && Bee Yee~ onto the director's list! haha! xD
There's so many things on nxt week... omg...
Mon - Jap Oral/Speaking assessment & quiz (as usual)
Tue - CAD test, Hardscape detailings, Softscape Part1 & 2 submissions
Wed - LCPN test, (PBPN class quiz?)
Thur - LCPN presentation
Fri - PBPN report submission, PBPN practical test
omg omg~~~
&& ytd went for my cca too =D
Well, i tot it could get things off my mind... so... i stayed till 8:30pm or so lol >-<
tht's the first time i ever stayed for tht long alone...
Heard tht they're gonna select a few into the manga team or sth...
i wonder if i could get in hee :x
though my basic stuffs isnt tht gd, but we shall see x3
I feel like drawing sth rite now... but i'm currently feeling slpy :x
haiz~ so~~ cannot draw liao~~
ltr needa do my PBPN labbie book hw and the report too...
yea.. KILL KILL KILL >-<
okies
じゃ！
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